READ CAPTION LOVELIES. This is a Photo from a writing session in a bar the other night. I shouldn’t have to justify myself with my writing but I want to because I truly care about you all. That is why I write. The shift in my writing lately is because of many reasons. For one, I am experiencing so much lately and I am writing about it. I am going through so many new things and emotions and finally understanding so much in the world I have never understood. I am only 23 and every day I feel something new and I think that is important. I don’t want to remain the same. “The core of man’s spirit comes from new experiences”
-into the wild. “Change your shape and tone so often that they can never categorize you.” - Bukowski.
For two, so many people just want flowery writings and romance and easy things. Simple little quotes. And that is okay. But that is not what I want to do here. I truly want to be a writer one day, to make a fucking huge difference with my words, and I want it to be a human thing. To relate to people because I understood them and not just made them swoon. I want to fucking understand you all and that is a disease and it hurts and drives me mad but I swear I would not want to have another life. I go to bars and drink and feel for YOU. You and you and you. I just want to understand someone and then someone else. The mad ones and gentle ones and all. The woman addicted to cocaine or the man in love with Jesus or the mother who loves her children more than anything but is on something that makes her not show it. Understanding is everything. That is my art. Not poetry. Not writing. Understanding. I don’t cry often because I am numb but I cry thinking about this. About you all. Sorry to show my vulnerability here, but I want you to understand me as I try to understand you. This is what life is about for me and I am going to die believing in it. The human race is my fucking heart beat.